What do you mean we’re going to sleep in the same bed?????

cold feet

Cuddle with me so that I can put my freezing cold feet on you, and probably use you as a pillow, and steal all your covers.

The wedding was beautiful; everything I could have ever dreamed of. From the perfectly fitted wedding dress and gorgeous bridesmaids to the handsome tux-attired groom and his attendants; a perfect day. The honeymoon was just as perfect as we held hands over candle lit dinners then returned to our room to cuddle and snuggle. And then it was time to go home and start our new life together.

Now, I am a pretty independent person and that independence carries right through to my sleeping habits. I like to have my own space. At any given time I will be snuggled up with two body pillows (one for my knees and one for my back), as well as a standard pillow for my head. I like my covers wrapped around me a certain way with one foot sticking out at all times. You can imagine my disdain at having to share my bed space with someone who had their own idea of personal property rights!

Ah, the struggles that we have had over who was taking all the covers and, “Don’t touch my toes when I’m sleeping!” For years I was determined to have separate beds, but that is one battle I am glad I lost. I remember lying in bed with my hubby’s hand on my tummy as we felt the baby we were never supposed to be able to have, move. I remember intentionally cuddling so that he could feel the kicks at night. I remember holding him close to comfort him when his Dad passed away. We were sleeping the night we got the call that our son had been critically injured in Kuwait and was being flown to Germany. My husband held me there in our bed as I cried. And I remember how lonely I was while Jim was in the hospital having surgery for prostate cancer, I prayed that he would come back home to our bed.

Joining as one person is more than sleeping in the same bed . “And the two shall become one flesh.’ So they are no longer two but one flesh.” Mark 10. Becoming one person involves the sexual intimacy of marriage as well as the day – to – day activity of life.

One flesh. Two people blending together so well that they are thought of as one. I’m sure glad that God’s got this one, because it is way beyond my comprehension! At least that is what I thought when we first married.

Growing in marriage is much like progressing from baby to adult. We face many of the same stages:

  • Baby Stage: This is what I will call the Peaceful Stage. I smile at the anticipation of seeing my loved one’s face; knowing that no discomfort we face will last forever, because I expect that my loved one will always take care of my needs; not concerned with being myself, because we are now one.
  • Toddling Stage: I start to think that maybe I don’t want to be exactly the same as my partner. I want to explore on my own and live my own life, but with the knowledge that when I fall, my loved one will be there to pick me up.
  • Teen Stage: I really don’t want you to pick me up! I want to be independent and be myself, but I like knowing that you are there; just don’t stand too close.
  • Adult Stage: I can’t imagine my life without him, flaws and all. Til death do us part.

The advice I give all couples when I counsel with them before marriage is to accept each other for who they are and don’t go in to marriage with the idea of changing them. God made each of us unique and I love the qualities God gave my husband. Do I get aggravated when I have to bring the coffee cups from the garage to the house? Sure, but it’s not marriage – breaking. There is so much to marriage then the daily. The world tries to get us to focus on the nit-picky things, but let me tell you, my dear friends, life is always going to be nit – picky and it’s time we started enjoying and loving the good.

Marriage is for better or worse. The well – known vows taken originally from the Book of Common Prayer[1] go something like this, “for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, til death do us part.” Wedding vows have changed over the years, but I still remember saying these words at my wedding. Over the years I have felt at times that we were going through the worst, only to find down the road that it can get even worse than that! But I have also found that it gets better and the bad times do not overshadow the good.

When we were first married we struggled with finances. I worked as a waitress at Howard Johnson’s and my tips often what bought our gas and groceries. My hubby had a good job that paid all of $85 a week. We had no insurance so we were devastated with hospital bills within the first year when I miscarried our first son. It was tough! But when you are newly married, it doesn’t matter. We had no stove, but I cooked pinto beans in the wedding present crockpot and made fried taters in the wedding present electric skillet. I am going to interject a word of advice here, do not try to cook spaghetti in a crock pot! It was so tough the dog wouldn’t even eat it!

But we had love. And the second year of our marriage we moved north to look for better financial opportunities. Jim went to truck driving school and when he landed a job with Pepsi Cola and made $25,000 that first year we thought we were rich!

Sickness takes its toll on a marriage, whether the man, woman or the children. Jim’s diagnosis of prostate cancer came as we were preparing to celebrate Thanksgiving Dinner with the family. The phone call rocked us, but we held tight to each other. Eight cancer-free years later, we are facing another health challenge and I’m afraid our closeness is being challenged.

In November, Jim was helping load wood from a tree that had blown down in our yard. He pulled his back, but that was nothing new, he had bounced back from back pain many times before. Over the next few days, the pain got increasingly worse and we ended up in the emergency room where he was given a prescription for a steroid and a low dose pain killer. We thought everything would be ok in a few days. Three months and two hospital terms later, we are still fighting the pain. He developed pneumonia and blood clots in both lungs and is still not able to walk due to the pain in his leg from the herniated disc.

To say that this has been easy would be a lie. Jim is my strong tower, but the pain and the medication he is on has taken much of his strength away. He feels that he has nothing to live for and that he has become a burden to me, our children, and his friends. That is the hard part for me. It hurts to the core of my being to see him this hopeless. I can encourage him, but I can’t do it for him. At times he does reach for his Bible and devotion book and read and it always helps. But then there are the times that the depression takes over and I feel like I need to watch every move he makes so that he doesn’t harm himself.

We will get through this and we will have a stronger marriage for having gone through it. Jim’s faith in God is stronger now than it ever has been; he has seen how God has directed our every path in this and has taken care of oh so many financial needs. God has brought witness of Jim’s testimony to him for encouragement and has provided in ways that we would never have thought. This, my dear friend, is marriage. Depression, sickness, and financial troubles are the effects of living in a sinful world. But when the two of you trust in the One who made the world, and give all of it over to Him, you will grow as one just as God designed. When my brother married I told him to remember that marriage takes three. His reply, “I’m not sure my wife will agree to that!” gave me the opening to share that the third party to that marriage is God. Without Him, there is no substance to the unity of man and woman.

Learning to sleep in the same bed, cook foods that both of you like, and living life to please another are all a part of marriage. My advice to my children, and now my grandchildren, is to marry your best friend and expect the bumps in that friendship to help you pull together.


Chains do not hold a marriage together. It is threads, hundreds of tiny threads, which sew people together through the years.

Simone Signoret

[1] http://justus.anglican.org/resources/bcp/1549/BCP_1549.htm


Thirty Days of Prayer for My Husband – Day 29: Strengthening our marriage


“Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.”

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Father God, we’re in this marriage to the end of life on earth. And I pray, Lord, that it continues when we reach that mansion that You have prepared for us, because I can’t imagine heaven without my husband.

I know that keeping a marriage exciting and alive is not easy, especially when all around us we hear things like, “Well, if it doesn’t work out it doesn’t take much to get a divorce.” What is ‘divorce’ Father? It has to be a surgical procedure, because when we said “I do” we became one flesh. No wonder there is so much pain in the separation.

I ask, Lord, that You grow us closer through the years and that the struggles of daily life only push us to each other for comfort and wisdom. I pray that the fruit of the Spirit would prevail during hardships and that we would always think of how our words, moods, and decisions affect the other before they come out.

I ask that You would remind us to live in the Spirit at all times and that we would strive for peace, love, joy, faithfulness, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, and self control in every aspect of our marriage. And, Lord, I ask you to know my husband and to strengthen him in whatever area You see that he needs Your guidance. If there are areas where my hubby knows he needs help, give him the boldness to come to me so that we can pray together. And remind me to do the same.

In Jesus’ Name,


Galatians 5:22-23

Thirty Days of Prayer for My Husband – Day 28:His self – esteem


“And I tell you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.”

Luke 11:9-10

Father God, this world beats us down. It makes us feel that there is no room for error in the way our children, marriages and jobs turn out and that same condemnation tries to make us responsible for all of the above. I lift my husband up to You as the head of our home and family. I have seen times when he was struggling with his job where he didn’t feel that he was doing a good enough job. I have watched him question himself when one of our children made a wrong choice. And I have heard him ask how he can know that he is a Christian when he fails You on a daily basis.

Lord, first of all, help my hubby to know that nothing on earth can take his salvation away from him; that is a free gift from Your Son, Jesus. And let your Holy Spirit remind him that he is a child of the King and that nothing he does on earth can take that prestige away from him. Teach him, Lord, that the world will always try to judge him and take away his manhood, but You do not look on what my husband does on the outside, You look on the inside. And I pray, Lord, that when I see him bow his head, it is not in shame from failure in the world’s eyes, but in prayer of thanksgiving for who he is in Your eyes.

In Jesus’ Name,


Thirty Days of Prayer for My Husband – Day 27: Relationships with his family

Collect family silhouettes“And the rib that the Lord God had taken from the man he made into a woman and brought her to the man. Then the man said,

“This at last is bone of my bones
    and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called Woman,
    because she was taken out of Man.”

Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.”

Genesis 2:22 – 24

Lord, family is so important to us and to you. And knowing our role in the family takes Your wisdom in dealing with life’s little changes. I pray for my husband, Father God, that as our family grows into adults and starts to learn what it is like to fit into added parts of family, that you will help him to understand that it in no way takes away from him as their Dad. Help him to understand that, as we grow older, we are equipping our adult children for living life without us by understanding the separations that are happening today.

I pray for release from guilt when we are not in our own parents, siblings, or other family gatherings when we are invited. We may not all be together each holiday, but our hearts are together. We may not have the traditions that we once held dear, but there are new ones being made. We may not all go to the same church or bowl on the same teams, but we are still family and we love and cherish each other.

And, Lord, help our families to understand that our absence is not because we don’t love them, and that we pray for them even in our absence. I pray, Jesus, that where there is unresolved conflict, that God would step in and soften hearts. Where there is unhealthy dependence or distance, that You, Lord, would help to create healthy, appropriate boundaries. I ask, Lord, that You give my husband grace and wisdom as the peacemaker and “wise one” in the family. And help me to support him in all things.

In Jesus’ Name,


Exodus 20:12; Proverbs 11:29

Thirty Days of Prayer for My Husband – Day 26: His Idols



 “Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry.”

Colossians 3:5

What a beautiful day! Thank You, Father God, for giving me one more day to love and support my husband. Today, Lord, I ask you to strengthen him in the way he spends his time. Lord, there are so many ways that his job seems to be an idol to him. The time he spends at work is a very small part of the time he is “at work.” He often dreams about it, one situation or another. And he will sit and think about his job to the point that he may not even know we are around him. I ask You, Lord, to deliver him from this obsession and help him to see that he is setting an example for his children, especially his sons.

I pray Lord, for his free – time activities, that each of them are honorable and glorifying to You. Help him to think about what he would do if You walked into the room during one of his TV shows. Help him to see that everything that is not of You, that he can’t put away, can become an idol. And deliver him.

I pray Father, that my hubby would not put anything or anyone, above You…including me. Soften his heart to seek You above all things. And, Lord, give me wisdom in how to help my partner overcome the idols in his life.

In Jesus’ Name,


Psalm 115:4-8; Mark 8:36

Thirty Days of Prayer for My Husband – Day 25: His Safety


“fear not, for I am with you;

    be not dismayed, for I am your God;

I will strengthen you, I will help you,

    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

Isaiah 41:101

Lord, it is natural to worry about the lives of the people we love, but I ask that You free me from any anxiety I might have over my hubby’s safety. I ask You to help me not live in fear of what might happen to him,, but to trust You with my husband’s life.

I know that You are more aware of what he does in a day than I am, and that You are with him at all times: strengthening him and holding him from harm. And I thank You. I know that You are watching his timing when he drives so that he can avoid anything that might cause him t0 be in an accident. I know that You are keeping an eye on him in his wood shop and giving him wisdom as he works with the equipment. And I thank You.

Keep him safe, Lord, he is my better half. In Jesus’ Name,


Psalm 121

Thirty Days of Prayer for My Husband – Day 24: His Fidelity


“We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ.” 

2 corinthians 10:5

Lord, I thank You that my husband has been faithful for all the years of our marriage, but I will never take this for granted. I know that no marriage is exempt from Satan’s snares and I ask, Jesus, that You arm my hubby against the temptations of lust whether it be physical, visual, or thought. I pray daily that he would know and feel the seriousness of our wedding vows and that he would not entertain any lustful thoughts. but take each thought captive for You, my God and my Savior.

Lord, I pray that as we grow together through the ages of our relationship, that I would be as desirable to my husband as I was when we first married. I pray that he would be blinded to what the world throws at him through television, and other media, and that he would never look at me in comparison to other women, but always through Your eyes, the eyes of Christ.

Father God, establish a relationship of mutual trust and honesty between my husband and me. I ask in Jesus’ Name.


Proverbs 20:6-7