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Not my Responsibility!

“The sower sows the Word.” Mark 4:14

Jesus spent a lot of time explaining the parables to His disciples.

To you has been given the secret of the kingdom of God, but for those outside everything is in parables,  so that “‘they may indeed see but not perceive, and may indeed hear but not understand, lest they should turn and be forgiven.’” Mark 4:11-12

I had a really hard time with verse 12. I could not for the life of me understand why Jesus would speak so that people could not understand and be saved. The word “lest” really stopped me, because Merriam – Webster defines lest as “for fear that.” So…Jesus is speaking in a way that He doesn’t want people to turn from their sins and be forgiven? I asked the Holy Spirit for guidance and after searching in prayer I found that, again, I was using my own brain and not God’s revelation.

I searched for the meaning of the word “lest” in my ESV Study Bible first, then I opened my Strong’s Dictionary of Bible Words. I could not find the word for “lest” that went with the verse. Then I pulled out my King James Version Greek Parallel Word Study which reads verse 12 as, “That seeing they may see, and not perceive; and hearing, they may hear, and not understand; lest*at*any*time they should be converted, and their sins should be forgiven them.” Those little asterisks between the words tell me that the English language does not have a word for the full meaning, and that all the words joined together are the true meaning. In Greek, the word for “lest at any time” is mepote (may’-pot-eh) and gives one translation as whether or not. Kind of made me stop and read it again, combining the versions. “…they may indeed see but not perceive, and may indeed hear but not understand, whether or not they should turn and be forgiven.”

So, Jesus is speaking to all people in parables. Some get it, some do not. Some MAY see and understand. Some MAY hear and know that Jesus is calling them to repent. Jesus knows the disciples names are written in the Book of Life so He goes a step further and explains the parables to them. How does He know? Jesus is God; He knows. We have the Holy Spirit to interpret for us. God knows which of us will ask Him. God knows which of us has our names written in the Book of Life.

Now, back to the parable of the seeds and the purpose of this blog. I know that I am called to pray and mentor as a child of God. God chose my path. What I called evil in my childhood, God brought to good. As I was doing my devotions yesterday and I was preparing to use what the Holy Spirit spoke to me for the book I am working on, I realized that I have always been a called child of God. I loved going to church with my Mamaw and I used every opportunity to go even after my safe world fell apart. I felt the difference of right from wrong at a very early age. I didn’t always follow what was right, but I know without doubt that God was with me in those times, too. If you think about it, you know. There was a nagging guilt or disturbance in the back of your mind as you lived a sinful life. There was something that drew you to Jesus.

As an adult, I chose to hear God’s voice calling me to follow Jesus. Hence, I claim November 6, 1976 as my re-birth day. The day I asked Jesus to forgive me and show me how to live. that did not enter my name in the Book of Life, it was already there. I wanted to live life on this earth in a manner that increased the seeds sown in God’s garden. And I started planting seeds.

Now, here is finally where I started today’s writing. The seeds are the Words of God to a people whose names are or are not written in the Book of Life. When we plant the seeds, it is not up to us who hears and understands, it is all up to God. Not everyone will let those seeds grow, some will yank them right out of the ground and toss them away. Some will let them grow, but feed them with “self” and “pride” and the growth will be slow and eventually die.

Some will know. They will know that they are living as sinners and need the grace of Jesus’ sacrifice in order to reach the promise of that New Earth we will eventually live in as God’s chosen. They will know that the words they hear, the seeds sown, are planted on the fertile ground of a prepared heart. Prepared by God from the beginning of time. “Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you, and before you were born, I consecrated you…” Jeremiah 1:5

In this verse God is speaking to Jeremiah, appointing him as a prophet. We are consecrated before we are born. We are each called to be “prophets” to the world. Planting the seeds of Jesus. God knows how we will respond and it is so hard for us to live with the not knowing. Family and friends who deny Christ just tear my heart out. But that is the seed that is falling on hard ground. Those who refuse to let go and let the Holy Spirit do the work are in danger of trusting in self and have never seen the actual grace that fulfills our calling.

Some who are reading this are going to say I am being judgmental. That I am looking at people and saying whether they are truly saved, truly children called by God. That is not my responsibility. My responsibility is to free up my mind to accept that God is greater than I am and He has everyone’s future in His plan. His garden, His seeds, His responsibility. My responsibility is to sow the seeds and pray for them to grow. God’s responsibility is to grow them.

Unrighteous anger

I am angry. Yes, I have been watching the news again, can you tell? So much hatred! People hate the police. Police hate people. Candidates that we will be electing to lead our government spending more time slamming each other than telling us how they are going to improve our economy and restore our country to greatness. Why do we feel responsible for making sure the sin in others’ lives is known to all? Psalm 75:7 tells us that, “It is God alone who judges; He decides who will rise and who will fall.”

We spend way too much time making sure the bad guys pay for their sins. We spend way too much time trying to take God’s place. God has commissioned each of us to live our own lives, be responsible for confessing and paying for our own sins, and following His Word as our guideline, and not the news.

There is going to come a day when we see God’s wrath on sin and, Jesus, I pray that I am on the right side of His wrath. That I have taken the time to pray for those who are running, or plan to run, our government. That I have compassion for those who are hurting regardless of the color of their skin, the circumstances they are in, or how much they have hurt me or my family. That I am aware of the injustice in our society, but not overtaken by it.

Psalm 76:12 says, “For He (God) breaks the pride of princes, and the kings of the earth fear Him.” Yes, the feelings that we have toward others come from a prideful source. Whether it is an “I would never do that” pride or a “my candidate is better than your candidate” pride. God will break it. We are nothing, but we are valuable. Each and every one of us, and them.

One thing I have learned in my Bible reading is that no matter how many times Israel, God’s chosen people, turned against Him, “He cared for them with a true heart and He led them with skillful hands.” Psalm 78:72. And He does the same for each and every child of God on earth. If we only forget what the other guy is doing long enough to see His Hand on our lives. Can you imagine the revival if every child of God stopped criticizing others and fell to their knees in worship of the God who created us and provided forgiveness of our sins so that we could be in relationship with Him? And what if that relationship was our focus? What a testimony to those who have not yet realized the beautiful gift of Jesus’ salvation.

“Finally, brothers, pray for us, that the Word of the Lord may speed ahead and be honored…and that we may be delivered from wicked and evil men. For not all have faith. But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one…May the Lord direct your hearts to the love of God and to the steadfastness of Christ.”

Is it possible to capture every thought for Jesus? It is if we remember the words in this verse in 2 Thessalonians 3. If we can move our thoughts from hatred and fear to, pray for us that Jesus is honored in our lives. That God would provide safety for us from those who are evil, while we pray for them that God would direct their hearts to the steadfastness of Christ. And that He would do the same for us.

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