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Not my Responsibility!

“The sower sows the Word.” Mark 4:14

Jesus spent a lot of time explaining the parables to His disciples.

To you has been given the secret of the kingdom of God, but for those outside everything is in parables,  so that “‘they may indeed see but not perceive, and may indeed hear but not understand, lest they should turn and be forgiven.’” Mark 4:11-12

I had a really hard time with verse 12. I could not for the life of me understand why Jesus would speak so that people could not understand and be saved. The word “lest” really stopped me, because Merriam – Webster defines lest as “for fear that.” So…Jesus is speaking in a way that He doesn’t want people to turn from their sins and be forgiven? I asked the Holy Spirit for guidance and after searching in prayer I found that, again, I was using my own brain and not God’s revelation.

I searched for the meaning of the word “lest” in my ESV Study Bible first, then I opened my Strong’s Dictionary of Bible Words. I could not find the word for “lest” that went with the verse. Then I pulled out my King James Version Greek Parallel Word Study which reads verse 12 as, “That seeing they may see, and not perceive; and hearing, they may hear, and not understand; lest*at*any*time they should be converted, and their sins should be forgiven them.” Those little asterisks between the words tell me that the English language does not have a word for the full meaning, and that all the words joined together are the true meaning. In Greek, the word for “lest at any time” is mepote (may’-pot-eh) and gives one translation as whether or not. Kind of made me stop and read it again, combining the versions. “…they may indeed see but not perceive, and may indeed hear but not understand, whether or not they should turn and be forgiven.”

So, Jesus is speaking to all people in parables. Some get it, some do not. Some MAY see and understand. Some MAY hear and know that Jesus is calling them to repent. Jesus knows the disciples names are written in the Book of Life so He goes a step further and explains the parables to them. How does He know? Jesus is God; He knows. We have the Holy Spirit to interpret for us. God knows which of us will ask Him. God knows which of us has our names written in the Book of Life.

Now, back to the parable of the seeds and the purpose of this blog. I know that I am called to pray and mentor as a child of God. God chose my path. What I called evil in my childhood, God brought to good. As I was doing my devotions yesterday and I was preparing to use what the Holy Spirit spoke to me for the book I am working on, I realized that I have always been a called child of God. I loved going to church with my Mamaw and I used every opportunity to go even after my safe world fell apart. I felt the difference of right from wrong at a very early age. I didn’t always follow what was right, but I know without doubt that God was with me in those times, too. If you think about it, you know. There was a nagging guilt or disturbance in the back of your mind as you lived a sinful life. There was something that drew you to Jesus.

As an adult, I chose to hear God’s voice calling me to follow Jesus. Hence, I claim November 6, 1976 as my re-birth day. The day I asked Jesus to forgive me and show me how to live. that did not enter my name in the Book of Life, it was already there. I wanted to live life on this earth in a manner that increased the seeds sown in God’s garden. And I started planting seeds.

Now, here is finally where I started today’s writing. The seeds are the Words of God to a people whose names are or are not written in the Book of Life. When we plant the seeds, it is not up to us who hears and understands, it is all up to God. Not everyone will let those seeds grow, some will yank them right out of the ground and toss them away. Some will let them grow, but feed them with “self” and “pride” and the growth will be slow and eventually die.

Some will know. They will know that they are living as sinners and need the grace of Jesus’ sacrifice in order to reach the promise of that New Earth we will eventually live in as God’s chosen. They will know that the words they hear, the seeds sown, are planted on the fertile ground of a prepared heart. Prepared by God from the beginning of time. “Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you, and before you were born, I consecrated you…” Jeremiah 1:5

In this verse God is speaking to Jeremiah, appointing him as a prophet. We are consecrated before we are born. We are each called to be “prophets” to the world. Planting the seeds of Jesus. God knows how we will respond and it is so hard for us to live with the not knowing. Family and friends who deny Christ just tear my heart out. But that is the seed that is falling on hard ground. Those who refuse to let go and let the Holy Spirit do the work are in danger of trusting in self and have never seen the actual grace that fulfills our calling.

Some who are reading this are going to say I am being judgmental. That I am looking at people and saying whether they are truly saved, truly children called by God. That is not my responsibility. My responsibility is to free up my mind to accept that God is greater than I am and He has everyone’s future in His plan. His garden, His seeds, His responsibility. My responsibility is to sow the seeds and pray for them to grow. God’s responsibility is to grow them.

Walking in the Spirit

Since we live by the Spirit, we should also walk in the Spirit.

Galatians 5:25

I drive a 2015 Jeep Wrangler. I enjoy my Jeep but about two years ago I really started having fun with it. Jim and I went to a Jeep Invasion in Pigeon Forge, I joined Jeep Church and Duck, Duck, Jeep KY on Facebook. And I decorated my Jeep. I couldn’t figure out what to name her, most of the names for red Wranglers were already taken. I kept coming back to my birth verse, Galatians 5:25. I already have a vanity plate with that on in, but to put it out there on my hood? Hm,m,m,m, for all to see? What if I make a mistake and people see it and think that I just put it on there for show? Wow, can I overthink something or what?

So my Jeep became KY GAL 5:25. And people ask me what the name stands for and I get to share the gospel. That was the purpose.

My Wrangler is my safe place. When I need to get away to my “mountain” , sometimes I get in and drive to a spot high above the city and just sit in my car and pray. Other times I go to a secluded place in a local park and sit to listen to God’s voice. I listen to Christian praise as I travel and it reminds me that my life belongs to God and His Spirit is within me to help me at all times.

Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have received from God?

1 Corinthians 6:19

My fear of doing something wrong is real, what if I cut someone off in traffic, or complain with my granddaughter in the car about the person who cut me off. What if they see me get frustrated at the grocery because of the prices then see me get into my Scripture covered Jeep? What if?

Well, I am not perfect. I am forgiven, always. And that is the testimony that the world needs to hear. Yes, I walk in the Spirit as much as my humanity can. But the world needs to know that walking in the Spirit is how we live when we turn our lives over to Jesus to change us. We will never be perfect, but through the journey, we learn, and we are forgiven of our mistakes, and we learn more about how to be examples to others in forgiveness and love.

He (Holy Spirit) will glorify Me (God) because it is from Me that He will receive what He will make known to you.

John 16:14

The Spirit listens for the Father’s next words of instruction for us. If He gave all His knowledge to us as soon as we were saved, how else would He get the glory He deserves in our clinging to Him? God gave us a free will so that we would recognize our need for Him. So that we would seek Him daily and that we would know our own weaknesses can only be strengthened through reliance on the Holy Spirit living in us.

So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.

Galatians 5:16

God works through the Holy Spirit living in me and I will walk in the Spirit always. Now, let’s go Jeepin’!

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